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Irving Penn - Summer sleep, 1949

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Drowning Dress (detail)Susan Jamison

my professor took this picture of the sun a few days ago through his solar telescope


dont use the phrases female-bodied or male-bodied, ever 

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"When they don’t love you the way you want to, you mourn that for however long you need to. But then you get back up and you remind yourself. You are not a reflection of the people who can’t love you. You will love again. You will be loved again." - Caitlyn Siehl 


I recently got asked in anon what the traits/characteristics are in BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder/Emotional Regulation Disorder)
So I decided to make a post instead. I think will be good awareness. Here are the 9 main symptoms:

1. Frantic efforts to avoid, extreme fears, or certain behavior and feelings related to the extreme fear of abandonment, rejection, and/or perceived criticism.

2. Switching between idealization and devaluation of others/splitting

3. Identity disturbance- poor self image, self esteem, uncertainty, self hatred, etc

4. Impulsive behavior that is often self damaging and as an attempt to relieve pain and intense emotions- spending sprees, recklessly drive, binge eat, have promiscuous sex, destroy property, steal, cause fights, take unnecessary risks, substance abuse, etc.
5. Reoccurring suicidal behavior/ideations, threats, gestures, self-harm behavior

6. Rapid cycles of emotions/shifting (from dysregulation)

7. Chronic feelings of emptiness and inadequacy, depressive symptoms

8. Intense anger and/or aggression, difficult to control- acting out and/or acting in

9. Stress/anxiety relates paranoia, dissociation, and psychosis (hallucinations, delusions, catatonia, disordered thinking)

And then even in those there are more than one symptoms. Those are just groups. All depends on how you count it. I usually do separately and explain each one… but I won’t this time.

Then there are HUNDREDS of other symptoms and traits/characteristics, so I’m just stating some of them!! =p Lots of ways to recognize this very complex, and unfortunately highly stigmatized and misunderstood chronic mental disorder of emotional dysregulation+hypersensitivity affecting everything from reactions, thoughts, perceptions, functioning, beliefs, feelings, and many things through everyday life- such as the ability to process things..
One with the disorder may display some or most of these symptoms and/or traits/characteristics, but nothing guaranteed as each person with the disorder is an individual and some may not have the same symptoms as others, as well as it being important not to assume any of these as they are rather a guideline to mental health workers because they are often seen and developed from the disorder and symptoms.

Others without it can obviously display or relate to some of the characteristics and symptoms from time to time, but the reasoning, cause, severity, and pattern is different and developed. Please note it’s completely different than that.

(Some of these are symptoms, some of these are traits/characteristics developed from the disorder and symptoms/a response of.)

10. Anxiety

11. Headaches/migraines are common

12. Seizures (lots believe to be related to epilepsy cause of emotional parts of the brain going erratic/rapid and firing off.)

13. Higher nociception (pain tolerence) brain less responsive to pain

14. Distorted eating patterns

15. Obsessive compulsive features (obsessive thinking, instrusive thoughts, “obsessions”, repetition behavior, etc)

16. Attachment (Related to ^)

17. Extreme apathy, boredom, dullness

18. Extreme recklessness

19. Baiting

20. Unstable Relationships as a result

21. “Always” and “Never” statements/relations (related to splitting)

22. Sleep deprivation

23. Childlike aspects-voice changing

24. Childlike aspects-“acting out”

25. Childlike aspects-curiosity

26. Child like aspects- dependency

27. Sarcasm

28. Promiscuity

29. Mimicking/mirroring

30. Flashbacks


32. Difficulty processing information

33. Difficulty focusing/poor attention span

34. Consistent change of appearance

35. Certain feelings of fear, negativity, or rejection of authority/people of “high importance” in their mind.

36. Alluring/seductive behavior

37. Extreme need for acceptance

38. “Needing to prove themselves over and over again to others and/or themselves” as the past doesn’t matter, identity is graded on what was done the very day.

39. Self discipline/work orientation as a result of OCD features

40. High IQ/intelligence

41. Creative thinking 

42. Studies show able to read others easily from such hypersensitivity, however, often mistaking neutrality as anger probably as a result of symptoms

43. Isolation

44. Defensive

45. Magical thinking

46. Fantasizing

47. Panic attacks

48. Anxiety Attacks

49. Hypersensitivity to caffeine, alcohol, some sugars and foods. Often described as being “allergic” to such things as it causes reactions from hypersensitivity and symptoms.

50. Memory lapses- may be a result of dissociation and/or perception, etc

51. Extreme perfectionism

52. Avoidance

53. Euphoric reactions

54. Detachment

Avoidance of eye contact

56. Difficulty transitioning plans, activities, shifts

57. Trouble with awareness

58. Sensitivity to other things and senses- light, sounds, temperatures, etc- from hypersensitivity 

59. Resistance

60. Difficulty with decision making 

61. Difficulty completing tasks 

62. “Rapid” speech

63. Studies have shown that during a menstrual cycle with BPD, hormones are affected more than others, leading to more vulnerabilities to symptoms 

Ok I’ll stop- so basically mix up a ton of mental disorders, some neurological disorders, and add a lot of special touches. See a break down of this here.

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